Right, wrong and truth are very subjective in this world and change constantly to suit the highest bidder, the biggest mob or those who are licensed to control, pillage, enslave and kill. It has been this way from the beginning. Every attempt throughout history by someone of higher moral commitment to raise up humanity has been squandered, squelched and sequestered by our lowest common denominator. Every group of people seemingly has at least one knuckle headed stunt double from The Planet of the Apes who is deliberately keeping us down and knowingly destroying progress for their own peasant minded consolidation of resources and/or pathetic temporal sense of power. Everyone is a threat who doesn't purposely smother themselves in apathy, pacifism, mediocrity and the pop culture conformist flavor of the day. Anyone can be demonized and brought to nothing if they don't kiss enough ass and laugh along with the punchline. Nothing is sacred and everything is for sale.

How much more of our time, energy and love are we going to waste trying to appease this self-perpetuating, fallacious quagmire society? The endless divisiveness and corruption of mankind is most often just compulsive attempts by individuals to fit in and have their primal needs met. Few of us truly stand for anything, share a cooperative vision for the future or have effective empathy for others. The hunting and gathering societies of ten thousand years ago were no different in essence and intent than the self-centered family, business and governing circles of today. While the methods and sophistication by which we attempt to satisfy our basic and secondary life needs have evolved, the innate killer instinct to get off and get stuffed without regard for the wellbeing of others is the same. We are still barely surviving after all this time and most of us are absolutely miserable beneath our half-assed attempts to pacify ourselves and one another.

We waste in a world of people that are invariably dishonest and unavoidably self-defeating. We repeat the same historical mistakes regardless of awareness, education, incentive and consequence. We have created a war and commercially driven technological complexity that we are unable to control or adequately comprehend. Our greatest minds have continually caused us the greatest losses of freedom, happiness and life. A few of us hoard all the land, resources and public opinion while most of us will live and die in claustrophobic people-boxes with nothing of generational significance and a voice that is never heard. Our governing persons, social leaders and licensed professionals are every bit as dishonest, erroneous, cowardly and lost in the dark as any of the rest of us. The senseless hypocrisy and fraudulent arrogance of our governing personnel is ensured to continue by their tyrannical punishments, coercion, suppression and dehumanization of our "have nots."

Our politicians, legislators, lawyers and judges actively resist solving societies problems for continual gainful employment and protection of their own special interests. Our law enforcement personnel systematically create fear, instability and criminal mentality, and are every bit as responsible for our lawlessness as those who are convicted. Instead of helping and forgiving each other we are thrown into satanic dungeons for huge portions of our lives, tagged with animal tracking devices, constantly referred to as pieces of shit and then we falsely act surprised when dysfunctional behavior continues. Our prisons are enslavement camps that offer no effective rehabilitation and could be emptied by at least half with negligible impact on society. Our privacy has been annihilated by liberal phone tapping, constant public video surveillance, billions of smartphones, thousands of satellites orbiting the earth, thermal imaging, night vision, rampant hacking and identity theft, and frequent undercover personnel whose sole intent is to incriminate and/or defame everyone.

Our news media and social entertainment have lost all respect for human life and manipulate the occurrences they report on so thoroughly that they function more as corporate sanctioned misinformation and propaganda agencies. Our countless television and radio stations have sacrificed all plausible reality and ethical concern in pursuit of greater shock, lust and confrontation value. The psychotic loop of fake families, phony endorsements and unnatural presentations of mood, behavior and relationships has turned the average person into a living, breathing caricature of a million fictitious moments, and a stumbling billboard for all the things we tack on to ourselves through brute force suggestion. We endlessly exploit and celebrate every possible destructive, violent and sexual act and then attempt shamelessly to escape responsibility when someone semi-consciously follows suit after decades of glorified indoctrination.

We idolize our own tenuous beauty and talents but refuse the God who has created everything. Our religious centers are houses of judgment, condemnation, bigotry, greed, hate, violence and nonsensical manmade rituals. We misuse our ability to comfort, strengthen, heal and redeem as persuasion to manipulate those in need. We use our loved ones as leverage to influence and harm one another. We publicize and find pleasure in each other's suffering. We blow smoke in each other's faces knowing full well that it kills everyone from our children and elders to our pets. We avoid eye contact and refuse to reply when spoken to. We treat our animals better than each other. We compromise, deny, reinvent, mutilate and destroy ourselves beyond recognition. We trash the earth and are sucking it dry almost instantly of millions of years of natural resources from all corners of the universe. Anyone can see that we have lost our way as a species. Our individual growth and happiness has been sacrificed for the ego and greed of those who have foolishly lead us into the chaos of a loveless and soulless feeding frenzy of our own kind.

For the past few months I have been living in a car and trying with every ounce of my being to somehow find peace and acceptance with melting into the roadsides of society. What an anticlimactic finale it would be after such an extraordinary journey. Sitting here day after day with life passing me by and no one seeming to mind at all has been confirmation of what I have always believed but needed to fully experience in order to know without question. We have got to be the dumbest and most ill-natured species in creation with even the slightest hint of self and chronological awareness. That I find myself having unanimously been elected as the worst of humanity is a true testament to just how insanely disconnected from God and reality we have become. That five years of gut-wrenching self-disclosure and selfless heroism hasn't even moved the dials for anyone opposing me is sickening. My own trauma is a thousand-fold that of anyone pointing fingers at me and the evidence is clear that I am the only person who ever wanted to fix anything to begin with.

I must get on with my life and try to find happiness again finally.